Tonight I went to see law abiding citizen. I will admit. It was good. Violent as all hell, kept me on the edge of my seat, good story etc. For some reason I still walked out kind of bummed. As soon as the movie was over I called my wife immediately just to tell her I love her. how fucking bummed I would be if anything would happen to her, and how I feel bad sometimes that I’m not there. She’s not a weak woman in the least bit, but as we were talking, we began to realize how fragile we are and how fragile this life is. It’s scary sometimes. I think that’s why I can’t sleep at night. These thoughts are good though. It’s good to be reminded. Even if it is by a dumb movie. It’s good to be reminded to not take this life for granted. I told her over the phone how i dont want to die young and get my brains shot out by my cellphone(if u saw the movie youll know what im talking about) and sometimes I wish I could just stay in our house and never come out. Humans scare the crap out of me sometimes. There are a lot of sketchy people in this world. She then said “ya, you might be living..but you won’t be alive” she’s smart. I like that. Anyway, I just needed to get this down on screen. It’s 4 am and I’m in my bunk listening to halo battles going on in the front and back lounges of the bus. This is not meant to be a downer in the least. It’s more of a realization. It’s good. Some really great friends made a painting for me and my wife once, and on it it said “draw circles around the ones you love. Not hearts. Because hearts are meant to be broken and circles never end.”

Love Jpoo